i got HERE. i GOT here. I got here. The terrified me. The panic-ing me. The ”my life is over if I don’t drink” me… we are here. Thanks to those who read my blog, who supported me with lovely messages…
I think for me the most important thing I have learned, the one thing that I want to take away more than any other… is that I now CHOOSE how my day turns out. Before, I was at the mercy of circumstance. Maybe it would turn into a big night… maybe not…. I now don’t have that worry hanging over me. I am choosing how I go to bed, and subsequently HOW I wake up. My life has an intentionality about it now that it is not left to random chance, roll of the dice of how rough I was going to feel the next day.
I choose life.
Contrary to thinking my life being over, my life is more productive, thought out, full, satisfying and connected than ever before.
TWO YEARS and counting. I don’t think I’ll go back.