I do feel very much like I am on the verge of an exciting journey with this non boozing. It seems like life has opened up wide and the possibilities are endless, due to not being hampered by ”Will I be hungover?” ”Can I trust myself to just have one or two?” “Shall I drive or will I be regretful and wish I had taken bus?” ”Can I commit to that if I am going out the night before?” ”Will I feel like shit the next day, so therefore should not say yes to this or that?”
Everything is just so much more manageable. So much calmer. And really – from the point of view of a NON DAILY DRINKER. A NON ON MY OWN DRINKER……(I have said this before) the difference is totally out of proportion to the smallness of what I have stopped doing. That being just not putting a glass to my lips – a glass containing ethanol in various guises – and sipping. Very little change. Very small movement that is no longer occurring. Bizarre.
So I have another exciting project that I am going to start blogging about, because I believe that clearing space, both physically and metaphorically is very important. This seems to be my ”new” thing. I have signed up for “Uncluttered” – a 12 week online course with a money back guarantee to get your home ship shape and ready to rock and roll. I am moving out of my current house in two months time, directly after a three week holiday. So I need to be organised. I am a master procrastinator. When I feel like I have too much to do I get overwhelmed. I make myself a cup of tea. And I write a list. Instead of just doing one thing that I should be doing.
I am also doing a course in Spiritual Direction. This has meant that I need my own Spiritual Director. This has been unbelievably useful for me – a person to come alongside one in their search and discernment of ”God” in their life. It is just my thing. I love it. Anyhow, I have needed to write a journal daily about what brings me life (and love and energy) and about what drains me. So a ”noticing” journal. Nothing judgmental. And the thing that drains me the most is when I waste my time and faff around and do too much facebooking and then think, okay I’ll go to bed now and do all that tomorrow. I can waste plenty of time because although I have a few small jobs, I don’t actually go out to an office, or place of work at a regular time. There are plenty of things that bring me energy and life, but the overriding draining one is the irritation at myself of wasted time. I don’t mean I should not take time out and rest and read etc. but I hate being unproductive.
Funnily enough, as soon as I stopped drinking, if you were with me reading the blogs from day 1, you will have noticed that my productivity stepped up 1000 fold. I was baking, making ginger beer, crocheting, etc and so on… I am still fairly productive, but because I can be on my total own for days at a time with no actual structure I can get quite distracted.
So productivity and house organisation with a twist into the metaphorical de-cluttering to follow…..And the odd nod to no booze Barbs.
Have a great evening.