354. This time last year

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I was revving up to the big 100 day challenge.  Over the years I have heard about, listened to and seen people who did not drink for a year.  I myself had done three months twice, and had a couple of kids which gave me about two years no drinking in 32 or 33.

Anyway, I had heard about these amazing people and thought, there is not a bloody hope in hell I could do that.  Because there is always a reason to have a drink.  And a drink, turns into another drink, maybe not that day but certainly in the few days after.  I was always full of good intentions, but they went nowhere.

I, standing on the cusp of deciding to stop for 100 days, felt the challenge was impossible. But I was determined.  I, in my dreams, thought about one year round the sun – see my early blogposts.  But that was a seemingly unobtainable feat.  Something others could do and not me.

Yet here I am 11 days away from a year off the sauce!  It has flown past.  I have adored it.  Not every single day is a day that you LOVE being AF.  There have been about three days (in a year) that I thought ”f*ck this” but did not act on it.  That is less than 1/100th of the time.  I regret nothing.  Except that I did not do this years ago.

It is beyond doubt the best thing I have done for myself, my family and my mental health.  I read this :

News Flash!!!!  Sobriety - no longer just for alcoholics!!!  

I definitely did not consider myself one.  Just someone for whom drinking was taking away more than it gave.

If I can do this, I can do anything.

Hello life!!!!

Author: barbsfalkiner

Approaching fifty, life about to change and want to try something different....

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