217,63. An aside

Beautiful people

 

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I read this wonderful post from Rachel who is a couple of days ahead of me…. I think it is wonderful :-

You know what I’m loving about sober today?

Giving a fuck again. 😁

Last night I noticed my sock drawer was a mess, correction has been a mess for 4 years since I moved into my house. I must sort this dam drawer I said to myself. The fuck?? did I just give a fuck about my sock drawer?

I also make my bed now every morning. I never did that, why the hell would I make my bed? I don’t care about it and no one else is sleeping in it.

But I do now because I give a fuck.

Ok, so it’s not just sock drawers and my bed. It’s little bits of everything. I care about other people, genuinely, their days, feeling, worries.

For me, hands down, addiction made me an entitled selfish brat. So long as I got my wine, I didn’t care. I actually drank NOT to care! Quieten them thoughts in my head and other people’s noise. Me and my wine is all I need.

No more, I care again now. About every second of my day and those in it. Most importantly, I care about ME, not in that selfish addicted way. Just in a way that I want to make each day the best it can be.

Starting with a bed that’s made. 😊

Happy Wednesday xx

Thanks Rachel.  That sums plenty of things up for my post of the day.

It is gratifying to know there are people around who understand where you are coming from.  I even fold my pyjamas (nearly everyday) 😉 I also wake up and put the cream on my face, and go to bed and put another different cream on my face.  So I feel like I am looking a bit younger…heheheh.  Plus I am able to get some regularity into my life.  Some consistency in personal things… to nourish the spiritual side of my life… It all takes time…

 

I am a notorious non-sticker-to-things… Start things with a burst of enthusiasm and then it tails off because the energy is just not there for consistency.

But with the regular bedtimes and waking times and just general regularity of life I feel so much more settled and calm and together.

Byee all you wonderful people.

 

Author: barbsfalkiner

Approaching fifty, life about to change and want to try something different....

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