The thing is…. I have lots going on… lots of winter small work. Changeovers for friends, and for myself. Baking to do, KidsClubs to organise. I do not have a ”proper” job, but I do various things to keep myself busy. All of which at the moment require early mornings, organisation, planning ahead…. And the tension I would be feeling if I was thinking about managing my drinking ALSO would be awful.
I would be worrying that I would have a hangover, be jaded, tired, low energy. I would probably have low self-esteem associated with regular over drinking…. I would probably feel overwhelmed and that feeling usually stops me in my tracks. If I feel overwhelmed I start procrastinating and time wasting and generally kicking around doing less than nothing….
BUT INSTEAD….. I don’t drink. So the following are removed:
- Future worry about feeling crap.
- About feeling unable to cope.
- About feeling low in energy.
- About feeling low esteem.
- About feeling jaded…
All are removed. And I can get the stuff done that I need to do knowing that I will wake up with a little bit of a bound!!! Bounding up rather than pulling the pillow over my head and blearily thinking ”OMG I AM DEFINITELY STOPPING DRINKING”… FOR THE 1000th time that I had thought that in my little life.
So voila. A weekend approaches. A busy one. And I can face it head on with energy and confidence that all will be well.