Thanks to Iona for this image…. And I guess it is so striking because it is so simple. And it describes so perfectly how I feel since I have stopped drinking.
It is hard to count the amount of times in my past that I have wanted to stop drinking. I remember being 35 and half way through the year, so when I was 35.5 I think I gave up for a few months…. Because I wanted the second half of my life (assuming we had 70 years) to be different from the first half. I have waited until I am nearly fifty to give giving up a proper try. I guess I hope to live to 100.
Thing is…. SO often I wanted some magical change which would give me a huge kick up the ass. A kick that would make me into the person I was jealous of… The fresh, motivated, calm, inspired, productive person that I was not. The kick has been administered duly…. on 1 August 2018. And I feel like I am on my way. To being truly free to be this person (as above).
Not much else to say. I am going to the spa now with my husband. I am so happy. Happy every single morning that i don’t drink. As the days pass further and further from day one, the voice is quieter. I am not jealous of the drinkers. I don’t feel left out and grumpy. I am free.