118. Some inspiration from others.

How is this for inspiring..?  From Tired of Thinking about drinking website…thanks Belle.

Lara (day 100): ““I’ve done 100 days sober, eaten a LOT of chocolate and gained some weight and had horrendous 14 year old pubescent acne break outs and STILL I know my life is better. Much better. So much better I want another 80 days. It’s not always easy, no ma’am, but I am moving in the right direction. I am not sinking into my past every second, beating myself up. I’m not moping and crying and sulking over what happened before. I am feeling strong. Like I have a bullet proof vest on. Like I have a secret magic power and laser beams in my eyes. I am seeing things for what they really are. I am cleaning up messes and picking up slack. I am dusting out my own cobwebs and opening up spaces in my head that I never knew existed. I have hope, not just glimmers but big bright firework explosions of hope. I’d like to continue going in that direction. And I’d like to see what happens next, because I have a feeling it involves a very sparkly future with glitter lights included. I will not drink for 180 days, not even if my husband/partner/daughter drinks, not if I need surgery, nor if there is a zombie apocalypse, especially if there is a zombie apocalypse. Everyone knows you need good aim to take those suckers down. Not drinking. No matter what. Because I want to see what happens next. And because for the first time in a very very long time, I feel free.” [update: she’s on day 1624 today]

Imagine being on day 1624??! Golly.  I have done the 180 day pledge as above.  I am absolutely certain that I will not break it.  But never say never.  I am going away tomorrow.  I am off to my land of SA in Cape Town, the place where my family lives and where I have drunk many a happy bottle of Sauvignon Blanc.  My saving grace is that my sister who lives there is also doing the Sober Experiment.  Phew.  My mother and her hub are NOT.  But I think that they are on board… they like a drink, so I will have to be a little creative.  I am picturing all the things I will be doing without alcohol… including another long haul flight… with my lovely OH.  I feel absolutely 100% okay about it all.  I aim to do lots of walking, running and maybe a bit of golf.  Getting up early to watch sunrise, swimming, playing with my nephews and generally enjoying my family.  I hope that you are all doing okay out there.

I will check in from over the seas


Author: barbsfalkiner

Approaching fifty, life about to change and want to try something different....

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