Not checked in for a few days! I have still been grappling with my various changes going on and am happy to report that I have worked through some head issues well! If I had been drinking I would CERTAINLY have drunk as the triggers for stress were my usual ones that I doused with alcohol to ease the discomfort thereof.
And because I did not drink, I faced them. If I had drunk they would have been magnified and spiralled out of proportion even more than they did anyway! And I would be in a messy mental space. Really messy. I am happy to report that I am not in a messy mental space. The tiny tiny knock on effects of not drinking never cease to amaze me. There will have to be a single (or many) posts about them.
Thing is…. and my lovely Belle would say that this is my Wolfie speaking…. I possibly was not THAT bad. My husband keeps telling me that I was not that bad and I am being a bit drastic. However, I was bad enough for me. I was bad enough to google more than once, ”am I am alcoholic?” Which I now know that I am NOT.
My final thought. The difference between not drinking and drinking is HUGE. And I was not even that bad. Not an alcoholic. Not a secret drinker. Not an every time getting pissed drinker. Just bad enough for me. And I will carry on not drinking because it feels so good.