By and large a good day. I listened to lessons 2,3 and 4 from Belle. There is such a wealth of help in them that I will definitely listen again. I found this morning that I feel gnawed about future events more than right today’s challenges. But this changed as the day wore on. I felt really irritated and grumpy with ones’ nearest and dearest. I took some comments in a very old way and felt very frustrated with the darling one. However, I apologised knowing that I was grumpy and gritty. But it continued and my grumpiness gnawed and gnawed. Anyway, I went to the airport to fetch precious family and got back to hungry household, scantily prepared dinner and very arsey nearest and dearest. Whilst I poured beers and wine for all….. my arsey one persisted in arsey-ness. Hmmmmm. Asked the person to please understand and be nice and patient with me as I was trying to do something that I was finding rather hard right at that moment. Then the person in question said…”Well that’s your choice isn’t it?”. I was exploding with…. annoyance and wishing to join in with a drink and peevishness at not being ”supported” and thinking of all sorts of ways to ”not support” the dearest one in revenge!! Just then a friend S called and asked if Josh was free to fetch THEIR friend from the Easybus as S had drunk too much to drive… Josh was out and I owe many a dog sit to S and was very happy to volunteer to leave the quaffing bunch to their wine on the patio. Off I go and pick up G. G, it turns out was sent to my direct by the Lord. G has not drunk a drop for two years and actively rejects it and is very happy to be a sober person. He was supportive and kind and UNDERSTOOD. I dropped him off with S and went home to the family. His Arsey-ness no longer bugged me, and I was quite happy to serve them more wine, as I don’t resent their drinking one bit! I am more than happy for them to do as they would like. Various degrees of understanding emanate…. But they are a great bunch and I am very glad they are here. And thank God for G as I felt like I had a kindred spirit.